The Continuing Road
When someone is little, no one thinks of the depravities of the world. When I was a child I was ignorant and thought little of what to do with tomorrow and even less of yesterday. When I entered middle school I was forced, without knowing, subconsciously to come to a realization that with the upcoming years I will have to decide what to do with my life. I sat idly by with the thought, and never thought it over. It was a hidden weight on my mind. Then high school came and I found that looking back at the simplicity of my childhood as something missed. There was more obligations, work, expectations, and reality than what I had previously thought. In the second two years of high school, it became obvious that the only thought was no longer the past, but the future, and how to survive the present.
Finally, I managed to get into college. I remember the pride that came along with it. Finally, the anxiety of being an adult and learning how to survive the rest of my life, all the hard work I put in came through. I succeeded in college, married, had children, and lived the life as would anyone. Eventually, I could move to the perfect setting I wished to live. The idea of yesterday, no longer seemed to come as a need. I found more safety in the good and bad in life and how that came to give me who I came to be now. It was on one evening, on my way home alone, that I stopped and stared around me. The sudden pull of a gaze that can only be depicted by a sudden need, it aroused only calmness. I then realized that “the woods are lovely, dark, and deep.” So, everyday after that, on my way home, I would find myself gazing around in the twilight, and every twilight, debate staying that extra minute to gaze at that imaginary hook that pulled me to stop and look into the woods. But, every day before the sun is fully down and disappears I realize that the life I have and what is waiting for me to come home is too real to leave. It is not time for me to stop and gaze I have too many obligations, and my life is not fully resolved. I find that “I have many promises to keep, and many miles before I sleep.”